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^{001. MY LOLITA BY MONTGOMERY MONTGOMERY.}

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MY LOLITA BY MONTGOMERY MONTGOMERY
POSTED ON THE 15TH OF FEBRUARY 2010 AT 3:28 PM

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SO GET THIS: TWO DAYS AGO WHILE ON BREAK, I WAS WALKING BY THIS BOOK STORE AND I CHECKED OUT THE 'NEW RELEASES' SORT OF DEALS. I'VE ALWAYS LOVED A GOOD BOOK BUT I HAVEN'T REALLY FOUND ANY GOOD ONES LATELY. SO THIS WAS APPARENTLY ONE THAT EVERYONE IN THE BOOK STORE KEPT RECOMMENDING. THEY SAID IT WAS A CRAZY STORY ABOUT A MAN WHO STALKS THIS CHICK AND BASICALLY RECORDS HER LIFE. HE RECORDS HER LIFE IN ORDER TO SOMEHOW GET CLOSER TO HER OR GET TO KNOW HER BETTER BUT AS THE STORY GOES ON HE FALLS IN LOVE WITH HER BUT ALWAYS FROM AFAR. THEY SAID IT WAS ALL ACTUALLY REAL WHICH OBVIOUSLY SPARKED MY INTEREST AND NOW I'M JUST AS PARANOID AS SHIT.

FIRST THINGS FIRST, THE STALKER MAN IS TELLING THE STORY FROM HIS POINT OF VIEW AND HIS NAME IS THE NAME OF THE AUTHOR: MONTGOMERY MONTGOMERY. IT STARTS OFF WITH HIM DESCRIBING AN AFFAIR THAT HE HAD WITH THE TENANT BELOW HIS APARTMENT WHO WAS A PROSTITUTE BY THE NAME OF CHARLOTTE. SHE ENDED UP PREGNANT AND HAD A LITTLE GIRL WHOM HE CALLS LOLITA BECAUSE EVEN AT A YOUNG AGE SHE HAD OLDER MEN CONSTANTLY WANTING HER AND ADORING HER-SHE WAS BASICALLY A LITTLE SEDUCTRESS IN HIS EYES AT LEAST. THE ENTIRE 'LOOK BUT DON'T TOUCH'. NOW, DESPITE KNOWING DAMN WELL WHO SHE IS AND THAT SHE IS INDEED HIS BIOLOGICAL DAUGHTER, HE LEAVES FOR A LITTLE OVER TEN YEARS TO SORT OUT HIS MARRIAGE AND BECAUSE, WELL, HE HAS KIDS OF HIS OWN. HE ENDS UP GETTING A DIVORCE AND BLAH BLAH TO SKIP AHEAD HE SHOWS UP AT CHARLOTTE'S FUNERAL AND SEES LOLITA WHO IS NOW SIXTEEN AND HAD BLOSSOMED INTO WHAT HE DESCRIBES AS, "...BEAUTIFUL AND WITH AN AURA THAT HAD ME SCREAMING ON THE INSIDE. IT WAS AT THAT MOMENT I KNEW I HAD TO KNOW HER. I HAD TO BE WITH HER; MY OWN DESIRES CONSTANTLY OVERPOWERING THE LOGICAL AND THAT WAS HOW LOLITA ALWAYS WAS. SHE WAS OVERPOWERING, MANIPULATIVE TO THOSE SHE NEVER CARED FOR, STRONG AND BRASH, YET AT HER MOTHER'S FUNERAL, SHE WAS ANYTHING BUT. THE SUN KISSED GLOW WAS THREATENING TO DIM, THE DAMS WANTING TO SPILL THROUGH THOSE HAZY STORMY HUES, AND BROKEN WAS HOW SHE LAY. I COULD FEEL HER SENSE OF LONELINESS AND I WANTED TO TELL HER SO; TELL HER I KNEW WHAT IT FELT TO LOSE EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING YOU'VE EVER LOVED OR DREAMED OF LOVING. IT WAS NOT JUST EMOTIONAL, ALL THESE PERVERSE DESIRES, BECAUSE THE PHYSICAL WAS ENOUGH TO SEND MY BODY, MIND, AND SOUL INTO OVERDRIVE. THE SEDUCTIVE SMILE TO HIDE THE TERRIFIED LITTLE GIRL INSIDE, THE LONG AND FULL HONEY COLORED LOCKS I WANTED TO RUN MY FINGERS THROUGH, THOSE FULL AND ROSY LIPS I DESIRED ALL FOR MYSELF..."

YOU GET THE GIST...BUT HE FOLLOWS HER EVERYWHERE. LOLITA MOVES TO A SMALL TOWN CALLED BRIDGEPORT IN AMERICA FROM HER HOMETOWN IN NEWARK AND HE FOLLOWS HER THERE. HE ALWAYS SAYS HE IS IN PLAIN SIGHT AND SHE NEVER NOTICES A THING, SO, "...WRAPPED UP IN THE AGONY AND PAIN THAT WAS LIFE. I WISH I COULD SPEAK TO HER...BUT AS THE FATHER I NEVER WAS I FELT I HAD NO RIGHT TO EVEN UTTER HER NAME OUT LOUD." HE WATCHED HER FUCK HER FIANCEE, WHO WAS THE REASON WHY SHE HAD MOVED TO BRIDGEPORT (HE PASSED AWAY) AND IT'S JUST...CRAZY, THIS BOOK. HE TALKS ABOUT HOW SHE'S BEEN A STRIPPER HER WHOLE LIFE AND THAT SHE NEEDED TO GET OUT OF THERE BEFORE SHE ENDED UP SIX FEET UNDER LIKE HER MOTHER. HE TALKS ABOUT HOW SHE MET A MAN AND THOUGH SHE SEEMED RELUCTANT AT FIRST, "...SHE CRIES EVERY NIGHT. PAINTING AND DANCING AS HER ONLY MEANS OF ESCAPING REALITY. THIS NEW MAN...RHETT. SHE'S FALLING FOR HIM AND SHE DOES NOT REALIZE IT. I SEE IT IN HER EYES...THEY HOLD THE SHINE AGAIN, THE OLD SHINE HER PREVIOUS LOVER COULD NEVER PLACE AND YET SHE DENIES HERSELF THE SIMPLE PLEASURE OF EXPERIENCING, FOR THE FIRST TIME IN HER LIFE; ... LOVE."

OKAY IF YOU HAVEN'T REALIZED THIS BY NOW...

THIS ASSWIPE WROTE OUT MY ENTIRE LIFE STORY IN A BOOK AND IS GETTING TONS OF MONEY FOR IT...ALL HE DID WAS CHANGE MY NAME TO MY STRIPPER NAME FROM BACK IN THE STATES...

MY LOLITA...THE AUTHOR CLAIMS HE KNOWS ME SO WELL...AND IF HE'S READING THIS OR WATCHING ME TYPE THIS...FUCK OFF! WATCHING ME HAVE SEX WITH MY BOYFRIEND AND THEN PUBLISHING HIS NAME, EVEN IF IT'S ONLY HIS FIRST, AND EXACTLY WHAT WE SOUND LIKE AND WHAT WE DO? WHAT THE FUCK?! DO YOU HAVE BINOCULARS OR SOMETHING? GO.GET.A.LIFE. AND IF YOU REALLY ARE MY FATHER LIKE YOU CLAIM TO BE, YOU CAN GO FUCKING BURN IN HELL YOU PERVERTED LITTLE BASTARD! I SHOULD FUCKING SUE YOUR ASS FOR ALL THIS SHIT YOU'VE PUBLISHED!

I HOPE YOU DIE ONE SLOW AND PAINFUL DEATH JUST LIKE YOU MADE MY MOTHER GO THROUGH YOU TWISTED LITTLE FUCK. PRAY I DON'T FUCKING EVER SEE YOUR FACE BECAUSE THEY DAY I DO I'M FUCKING BASHING IT IN WITH BRASS KNUCKLES.

MY LOLITA IS JUST A BOOK BASED ON THE INVASION OF PERSONAL PRIVACY AND EVEN IF THERE IS A SECOND ONE COMING OUT-WHICH I WILL MAKE SURE IT DOESN'T-HE'LL BE DEAD BY THEN. DON'T BOTHER READING IT UNLESS YOU WOULD BASICALLY LIKE TO READ UP ON THE MIND OF A FUCKED UP FATHER WHO WANTS TO PLOW HIS OWN FUCKING DAUGHTER.

ASSHOLE.

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